( he'd been thinking something like friends, even with Guanshan's high standards. so not quite there yet? or not like that at all? but it'd just been a thought he had after the teen's question provoked his own thoughts. )
You say that like it isn't enough. If that's what you're thinking -- important's good for me.
( feels nice, actually, even if he knows it's a mistake. )
[never friends -- not with Rokurou's goal, not with knowing he's eventually going to leave, no matter what happens, no matter how he feels or what he says]
it isnt ur just a person whos happy w/ what he gets let me take advantage a that a little while longer, awright ?
( that's almost funny to him. when he'd never been happy with what he had, working to be better, stronger, overcome self-inflicted obstacles. it's never been enough. and now, he's not even worth as much. happy... satisfied. has he ever been, really? )
From you, I guess that's true.
You can take advantage as long as you still want to. I don't mind.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
did i let it near me ?
no subject
no subject
if it was what u both wanted what i like dont matter, i said that before
[don't make him second guess himself when he's finally coming around, geez]
no subject
If there's anything I'm disappointed about, it's that there was something I didn't get to ask him, that's all.
no subject
if i wanna put u in a good mood or somethin
yea ?
no subject
Yeah. Doesn't matter now, though.
no subject
but ill listen to anything u got to say
sorry
make sure u dont make the same mistake later
no subject
Yeah. Can't let it get away from me again. If I ever want to ask anyone else something like that, anyway.
no subject
u dont seem the type to in the first place
i like that about u
but i guess shit happens
no subject
You're right. Time's precious -- guess I let my guard down too much here.
no subject
or ur sexual conquests
probly
just make sure i can still reach u if u put it back up
no subject
Armor's always has weak points.
no subject
....im one ?
no subject
What, a weakness?
no subject
u know what dont
dont answer that
no subject
Why? You must want to know if you asked.
no subject
theres a difference between listenin to ur goal &..... somethin like that
no i realized how dumb it sounds
its fine
no subject
Can I ask you something then?
no subject
i understand more these days
a course
no subject
What am I to you?
no subject
[it's not as though he hasn't thought about it, how to describe what they are: friends, lovers, neither, less, more]
[only one word in his vocabulary has come close, felt even remotely comfortable, and it's so vague and imprecise]
important
thats all i got right now
no subject
You say that like it isn't enough. If that's what you're thinking -- important's good for me.
( feels nice, actually, even if he knows it's a mistake. )
no subject
it isnt
ur just a person whos happy w/ what he gets
let me take advantage a that a little while longer, awright ?
no subject
( that's almost funny to him. when he'd never been happy with what he had, working to be better, stronger, overcome self-inflicted obstacles. it's never been enough. and now, he's not even worth as much. happy... satisfied. has he ever been, really? )
From you, I guess that's true.
You can take advantage as long as you still want to. I don't mind.
no subject
i mean
u dont ask for much
[mostly just acceptance, a good time, sometimes a willing ear]
i wish u would sometimes
itd make this easier on me
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)