uh hm i guess bcoz if i feel.... useful somehow, im not second guessin myself all the time & if there were things i knew u wanted from me really clearly then i could focus on doin them insteada tryna think up what it might be
that was what i liked about sebs i understood how we fit & what he wanted outta me
I know I want to spend time with you. I want to see you even if we're sitting in silence or not even paying attention to each other. Know I want you to fall asleep with me over anyone else, and I know I want you to touch my face more than anyone else. I want to hear about what you've been doing even if it's nothing. I want to know what you're thinking when you get that look on your face.
But, you're right. Not much matters to someone like me.
u can be or maybe..... we are i think about that a lot more than i should
[a string of words that makes his chest ache with longing, swelling and tearing along the edges, paving a wet path for the creep of sorrow at the last line to web in him]
[does that mean those words mean more because of it? or is it all just negligible and calculated sacrifice in the end?] then what am i to u
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i mean
u dont ask for much
[mostly just acceptance, a good time, sometimes a willing ear]
i wish u would sometimes
itd make this easier on me
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hm
i guess bcoz if i feel.... useful somehow, im not second guessin myself all the time
& if there were things i knew u wanted from me really clearly then i could focus on doin them
insteada tryna think up what it might be
that was what i liked about sebs
i understood how we fit & what he wanted outta me
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... Well, it's not like I don't understand. So you want to know what I want from you? I can do that. I didn't know that was what you wanted.
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do u even know ?
nothing much matters to u except whats.... u know, immediate
present
& gettin back home
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I know I want to spend time with you. I want to see you even if we're sitting in silence or not even paying attention to each other. Know I want you to fall asleep with me over anyone else, and I know I want you to touch my face more than anyone else. I want to hear about what you've been doing even if it's nothing. I want to know what you're thinking when you get that look on your face.
But, you're right. Not much matters to someone like me.
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or maybe..... we are
i think about that a lot
more than i should
[a string of words that makes his chest ache with longing, swelling and tearing along the edges, paving a wet path for the creep of sorrow at the last line to web in him]
[does that mean those words mean more because of it? or is it all just negligible and calculated sacrifice in the end?]
then
what am i to u
[that's fair, right?]
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You're one of the people I care for most.
( Hasebe was one of those, too, but it's always in a different way. )
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me too
is that enough ?
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eventually
but when i do ill say it to ur face
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