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[swordhardy]

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[swordhardy]

Yeah

[pushpin]

awright
uh....

safe
warm
scared & nervous & that aint just the daemon thing
confused
like i belong or got worth or somethin
special
happy sometimes
sad too
a lil obsessive, a lil stupid
embarrassed but sometimes its in a good way
lonely, once in a while

[swordhardy]

( was expecting a sentence what is this )

... You really are a passionate guy

I like that about you

Even if I can't understand how I make you feel half of this -- it doesn't make me unhappy.

Lonely?

[pushpin]

[...relaxes, fingers going to a knot that's been forming on the back of his neck]

[he's harder to scare off than he seems, huh]

its just u bein u

um yea
sometimes i wish i was w/ u instead
or when im busy & just wanna do somethin stupid & easy
like distract u from meditatin

[maybe "lonely" is the wrong word, but he doesn't have another one for that kind of... yearning]

so i guess that means........ guilty too

[swordhardy]

Wanting to be with me makes you feel guilty?

Then come see me. I'd want to see you too.

[pushpin]

it aint that easy
i cant spend all my time w/ u, i gotta make money

[swordhardy]

You want to see me all the time?

[pushpin]

i
er

not.... ALL the time all the time
ur too damn annoyin for that

[saved]

[swordhardy]

Right. So come see me when you want to!

[pushpin]

i never said i wouldnt

[definitely won't sometimes]

[swordhardy]

You're stubborn

You wouldn't

[pushpin]

shut the hell up u dont know

[swordhardy]

I think I do

[pushpin]

well ur WRONG
im not a coward, ill come when i wanna
& ill lick ur scars too, just watch me

[swordhardy]

Hoh?

Then come over. I'm not even wearing a shirt right now.

[pushpin]

I DIDNT MEAN RIGHT THIS SECOND

[swordhardy]

( LAUGHTER which he doesn't send in text form )

What the hell, you're so cute sometimes

Fine, fine. As long as it's clear that it's fine if you want to see me, okay? Ah, and you work late a lot, right? I'll stop texting you so early

[pushpin]

[SEETHES QUIETLY...]

i work a lot in general
hell im at work right now

.....u dont got to though
its nice to wake up to a message from u sometimes

[swordhardy]

I figured you were

... I know it's probably not always the same, but what time do you usually go to bed?

[pushpin]

its boring but a lil better now

2 or 3 ? i get up at 9 or 10 if i got a shift

[swordhardy]

Work's work. I was thinking of picking something up myself

Only five or six hours of sleep?

[pushpin]

.....like what
i feel like u got a very specific skill set & nothin else

thats 7, buddy

[swordhardy]

Yeah I know. How many jobs need you to slice things around here?

On average? I guess that's not bad.

[pushpin]

uh
maybe somethin at the deli....? or a meat department at a grocery store

its really good what the hell
i used to get more but it was bcoz i never did my homework lol

[swordhardy]

I could do that! They just cut meat all day, right? That sounds pretty fun

Extra work from your lessons, right? I can see you skipping that